after 30 minutes I call her to tell her I just finished the Spinal Attunement Session. “Haha, I knew you would call now”, my client says. I wait for a few seconds to just listen to her. See what she says, how she talks and feels now. Without me even asking her she responds “I don’t know what you’ve been doing and I imagined it different. But I believe things are possible. It felt as if someone would pull the pain out of my body. My foot still hurts somewhat and well, I have pain ALL over my body since a year now. But the worst has been my hand. I couldn’t even sleep anymore. It doesn’t hurt anymore. In fact the opposite it feels so good.” “Which hand?”, I ask. “The left one”, she replies. And I knew it. I could feel it on my own body. My left hand is warm and just feels so soft.
After I had my first 1:1 client sessions with sound healing I knew I had to learn a different modality. My hands were automatically drawn to my clients. Well, I can not just go to them, do something or even touch them. And what am I even doing? I started to think. But my body was literally pulled, it was as if I could not hold back. So I found myself learning from Sigourney Belle. Founder of Soma Mystica and the Spinal Attunement Method. After over ten years as a neurologist in a clinic, knowing how she helps her clients differently and could even sense where in their bodies cancer lies. She founded her own institutions and practitioner methods. With profound wisdom from the western medicine and eastern medicine, she blended best of both worlds with over a decade in actual experience with practical client work.
My first client session results were beyond describable. After weeks, months or years of pain, my client – as I like to say – “wake up” after between 30 minutes to 3 hours with me. And they look like a different person. As if they are more youthful. “I never felt so ‘me’ in my entire life”, one young woman once said. And you could tell it. Every cell of her being was relaxed, attuned – to her natural state of who she truly is. This is why I called my 7 week one-on-one guidance True Identity. Because what I do is bring people back to who they truly are. At peace, without worry, with a healthy body. No matter how unexplainable the disease is.
Already in my Psychology Bachelor’s studies I thought – yeah it is so obvious. ADHD, autism, chronic illnesses, it is not that they are unexplainable. It is the stress that the mother holds during pregnancy. It is the circumstances that child grew up in, not suited for that particular human being. That trauma that is stored in our cells and genes, passed on. From 3-4 generations before us. Accumulating with all the single times a human being says yes to something he or she does not actually want – like a not so good, or let’s call it somewhat yeah – say the truth – emotionally abusive relationship. A job that causes you burn out. You would rather say yes to that – and No to yourself. Please read that again.
You would rather say Yes to an abusive relationship and not be truthful to yourself for what it is. You would rather say yes to your job that causes you burnout. And not face the truth that you chose badly for yourself. You would rather make up stories of why it is ‘not so bad’. You would rather say No to yourself, instead of saying No to something that destroys your mental, emotional and physical health. Instead of saying Yes to yourself.
I believe the the biggest problem human kind has in the 21st century is: a lack of true self-love. A lack of choosing so good for oneself. Even if that means to take on a hard decision. What is one hard decision you have to face? That you know you’re holding off for way too long. This hard decision could be quitting your job, having a conversation with your boss or co-workers. This hard decision could also be to ask that person out for a date. Or to say to your partner what you don’t like, how you truly feel and wish for instead. That hard decision could also be to book that dream vacation and go to Thailand or Bali for one month on your own, finally. And allow yourself to relax and have the best time of your life. But you will only make those though decisions, the moment you realize you can and must choose better for yourself. And you in deed are the only person who can make that decision for you. No matter how much you wish someone else would take that burden off of you. You are the only person you can and has to take on a decision.
My client with rheumatoid arthritis has waited for over two months now to take on the offer to work with me, even though it is really affordable. And now she experienced what is looks like to choose better for ourselves. But sometimes we are so stuck in our stories. Of the pain we have, the ‘how much we miss him and that he should have chosen us’. The ‘well I will wait for a year longer even though I got depression, burn out or panic attacks – and then I’ll see whether I will really quit my job’. Because we are too stupid to acknowledge that we have a problem we chose instead of choosing better for ourselves. Amen.
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