25 degrees celsius, the sun is shining, my morning could not be better. The only thing I used my phone for within the last four days? To open the timer app for my morning meditation. Wow. And how much better could life be? The man I thought who was the man of my dreams stands right next to me. “Wow, I don’t know when the last time was I did not use my phone for a whole day.”, he acknowledged impressed. I flew all the way from Cologne to Mallorca because he finished all his work tasks and could take the whole weekend off. Quality time together. He was still working a few hours in the morning. Yet, beautiful dinner together, mountain views. Sexy beach days and more. How could summer be better? And the fact, that I did not use my phone for the whole time of our mini vacation together, was something that did not let him go. “Mischa I know this might sound crazy but actually: what do I need my phone for?”, I answered. He picked me up from the airport. He planned everything we did together for this entire time. Why would I want to be anywhere else with my attention than in this present moment? “I could cut off some of your mindfulness.”, he smiled and kissed me. While we were in the car he seemed to be in his head a lot. The way he was into philosophy and interviewing people let shine through that he is deeply insecure in some special kind of way. And I liked that. The way he was thinking about it all, so occupied in his mind. It made interesting conversations I participated in and sometimes just let him talk.
My mind is free and I can only be in the here and now. There is nothing that I miss. The only way that I miss is, if I miss out on this present moment. How could life be more beautiful than to participate fully in this present experience?
“Wow, you just lay there and read you book.”, he stared at me as he walked in our apartment. “Yeah”, I replied and smiled. “What are you reading?”, he asked and came closer. “You are a badass. How to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life. From Jen Senciro. It is probably the fourth time I read it by now.”. This book truly has it. One scene I remember in particular is the scene where the author sits in a bus. A 16 hour bus ride from one end of India to another. Not enough that this is a long bus ride in a pretty hot country without any AC. The bus drives through an Indian wedding. And as the tradition is, the bus stops, everybody joins the parade, the elephants, the colorful encounter with hundreds of people. And she is stuck. Stuck in her ‘I want to be there sooner’, ‘Why can’t we just drive past that stupid wedding’ and ‘What on earth am I even doing here’. And yet, she remembers there is only this present moment. And she can choose to shut off her thoughts, join the party, and usher it all in.
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