If by now you cannot tell. I love writing. Did I ever know before? I can’t tell. And what started off as journaling to get clear on how I want to live, what is important in my life. How to do practices with clients in my Master studies of psychology. Practicing “The Wheel of Life”, “grave exercises”. Journaling turned out to be my profession. I used to journal a lot. Especially since around April 2021. Having my first structured 9-5 “job” for 6 months at a huge insurance company. Working in the leadership transformation department. I started to freak out slightly. I loved organizing the workshops. Leadership workshops online during the pandemic. Hosting my own little series on breathing, grounding, mindfulness exercises. Guiding the employees through dream journeys, breathing exercises and stretches. Even when I got into deeper psychological practices with tapping later on as I worked for companies, everybody was always on board and loved it. Even people who seemed to be reserved. I simply got people on board with my voice and energy. Hm, what wondered me most is how people enjoyed my voice. I used to get bad feedback for my voice and sounded terrible when singing in my teenage years. Well, listen to my podcast Alchemy Soul, remember my yoga classes and ask my ritual clients, my voice is surely magic now.
How do I want to live? That question got through me so often. And journaling which started as a self practice in my last year of studying, to guide my clients through it. Became a self-help tool as I did not want to work 9-5 in rigid structures. I knew it even before my studies ended. And the first 9-5 experience, even though being successful in consulting, sucked my happiness and life force out of me in the evening time. During the workshops I gave, preparing the materials, I was in flow and I loved it. Yet I knew, there are topics and different worlds I am drawn to and ready to discover. Namely yoga. So I started to give weekly yoga classes in our consulting boutique in Düsseldorf. My colleagues surely loved it. And I loved preparing the playlists on my train rides to work. Handling 9-5, riding the train 3 hours a day, sometimes even longer, giving my own yoga classes, running content creation on Instagram, self-studying with online-courses on energetics and interpersonal communication, learning within teacher trainings. Wow those were full weeks. But I have energy for what I love. And what sucks the life out of me, does not deserve to be in my life. Life is too precious for that.
While journaling developed into a tool to cope with worries about my 9-5 jobs, it turned out to become the start into writing my first book. This week I finished writing the last chapters and I can’t wait to see how it will change and inspire many people around the world. I never intended to write a book. Well, maybe my soul draining 9-5 experiences were good for that reason. Without having to cope with the struggle of sitting in front of a computer in an office while the sun is shining, maybe my first book would not have made it into this world. Maybe it would have come to birth another way. Who knows. We live in a universe with endless possibilities and yet, I wonder whether the outcome of our lives is only one. Maybe we are intended to only live one way. And the universe is guiding us. Giving us directions and signs through our intuition. Leading us to people and places to grow, learn, love and stay. To set better boundaries, learn how to listen more to our intuition. Last Sunday during our phone call my best friend Arian said, “If there is one thing I will always be reminded by your being – it is: Trust your intuition more.”. And those were to most heart touching words that could reach my heart for a long time.
If there is that one thing I would advise you – it is: listen to your intuition more. How can you do so? Simply by being in silence. I remember one or two posts with my crystal singing bowls, that were simply about silence. The more you can shut down the voice and noise around you. The hustle and distractions and attention seekers – the more you can tap into what’s truly inside you. What moves through you, lives within you, wants to get out. And what wants to get in. Be aware, that the only way to judge if something is good or right for you can only be through you. Only you can know how it feels. Your best friends and parents may get a good sense for that. But only you are the person to tap into the universal intelligence that runs specifically through you. How gorgeous is that?
And how sad to say that most people nowadays have lost touch with their inner beings. With their inner muse. With their inner peace and contentment. The everlasting state of abundance within themselves. Because they’ve stored.a lot. And if I were to recommend you something: It is to start morning pages. It is the tool for you to let things out. Start by writing 3 DINA4 pages each morning first thing as soon as you wake up. Julia Cameron describes it as her creativity technique. Well, all I can say is, it brought out all that was lingering inside of me during a wonderful and somewhat stressful time during my first 9-5 before graduating. And it brought so much out, that my head was empty and words, ideas, musings had the space to be expressed through me. So, this is the story of my first book’s creation And if there is one thing I hope I moved you with today. It is the beauty of opening yourself up towards your inner world. To get in touch with the most precious place on this planet. That can only be found inside of you.
Sending you Love & Trust
Kinga
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