Where does the feeling come from to be our true authentic self? And how can we know whether we truly are that?
Welcome to my life. My name is Kinga Wanesa Kruschwitz, 27 years old, born in Poland, raised up in Germany since 3 or 4 years old. Finished my Bachelor and Master’s degree in Psychology at the University of Bonn and Cologne. Already led DAX company workshops for strategic service and management. But well this blog series is not about the past or who I was.
This is about who we are becoming. Each and every one of us. Welcome to my life.
Day 1, 08th of Feb. 2025
Do you believe that there is a way to live your life right? I am actually in the current belief that each and every one of us has a personal soul path. And I believe that through spirituality we can get pretty close to the path we feel most aligned, at peace and fulfilled with. Naming by leaving our own hindering patterns, hurt parts and ancestral trauma on a body, mind and energetic level behind. Plus by integrating our strongest desires and accepting all of ourselves. The parts we don’t want to face because we don’t acknowledge our inner truth. Who we are, what makes us happy and how we truly want to live.
I believe that every single dream and vision we have shows us that right direction in life. And that by trusting our intuition, being bold and following through with were we are pulled towards, we find our way in life. Living life right. And yes sometimes that pull in life will drag us into the weirdest shittiest relationships. As the one I had with Adriano in summer 2023. The biggest butterflies were in my stomach, but I fell hard. So hard, I thought I’d be prepared to experience my mother die. The good thing about it? I learned to trust my inner voice. Already during our first day my gut feeling said, don’t meet him again. He was freaking out because of the friendship plus thing I had going on, even though I said I will end it the same day. I was playing with open cards because he said he was the “relationship type of person”. All the poly stuff and so on he already had in Berlin and is sick of it. He wanted a woman for his life and saw “huge potential” in me. Turned out one year after our 2 months escapade we were sitting on my balcony on a warm summer day to have a chat as friends. And we started dreaming about our biggest desires. “Well today is the lions gate portal”, I told him. “The biggest day during the whole year for manifesting!”, I dreamed. Yes I love astrology and I don’t care what you think about it. Haha. It gives me the sparkle, the magic, the far away mystery to dream. I like to journal, play crystal singing bowls, pull a nature oracle card and connect to what I let go or what I want to draw into my life. Aka who I need to become. So whether you believe in astrology or not. I believe it is a great way to reconnect with our inner world and live more intentional. Less on autopilot. But more in connection to our true nature. Yes I love psychology. No wonder I studied it for 6 years.
Anyhow, coming back to the balcony. That stupid guy told me his biggest manifestation is having 10 women in his villa. I thought you bastard. So much to you wanting me as your only wife and being so jealous of every past man in my life. Seems like this blog is becoming a therapy session for myself. I have to laugh.
I don’t know where this blog will lead me, if it will change your life for the better. Inspire you to trust your inner voice more. Shed down old beliefs. Process your own experiences. Or give you more trust in your life and finding your own way of a happy and mindful life. No matter what. I trust myself. I trust that I write daily because I feel like it “comes through me”. In connection to the universal intelligence, the cosmos, Source Energy, God – whatever this may be. So I write. And I would love to have you along with me every day on this journey of trust. And open up to comment below what this story and every day I am sharing here, does to you. How does it make you reflect upon your life? Do you have another belief than I do? What similar experiences did you make?
Let’s connect and share this magical and mysterious journey of life together.
Sending you so much love and trust.
Kinga Wanesa
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